|Newbie - Kinda ?!?! Sorry 4 the Rant!!
||[Dec. 7th, 2004|04:33 pm]
|||||Eminem - Ass Like That||]|
I dunno if y'all remember me, because i was here for a while, but then i gave up and decided that "hey, there's nothing wrong with being fat, and it's better to be fat than to be unhealthy and unhappy and hurting people, right?" ....... WRONG! Only a delusional fat person could come up with that kind of shitty logic, because, i'm happiest and healthiest when i'm THIN. Nothing makes me feel better than knowing that i haven't eaten or that light-headed sensation i get from exercising too much without food.
Now, once again i have the problems that i had before, concealing my actions has always been difficult, not to mention the fact that i am a fat cow with a complete inability to have self-control which inevitably leads to fasting, which only makes my binge even worse and then of course....the purge, which has become increasingly more difficult to do since my mother found out.
So, here i am again, back to square one, after reaching my HW of 140 again. I am unsure of my CW, as i've been too scared to step on the scales for fear of what it will say, until i restrict enough to feel comfortable about how much it tells me i still have to lose.
Stay strong girlies!
Well, i'll update soon, and wish me thin!